I first met Dean not long after my wife and I split up.

eat my dick

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 20:56:49 GMT

3.6 million years and here we are
i really thought we'd come so far
you've proven me wrong boy and it's too much
you're just a caveman with a club
think you're cool and oh so tough
going out and getting rough
7 on 2 is far from fair
pulling up out of nowhere
filed out one by one
getting ready to have some fun
small man with something to prove
in the end yer gonna lose
mild concussion and a massive black eye
all shook up i'm not gonna lie
it's what you do to others that makes me see red
i really wish you'd just drop dead
wrap your car around a pole
goin nowhere nice cos you got no soul.

neutral

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 01:20:36 GMT

so today was an interesting day. the power went out at work at about 2:30 and as a result the shop shut down and we got to go home early. i got out to the parking lot triumphantly, looking forward to an afternoon of relaxation to find my mom's car had been towed from the spaces adjacent to my work. i had driven to work today cos she had not gone in to work. i parked in one of our neighbors spots because all ours were taken and their spots are always empty anyhow. some bored ass fuck inside felt it necessary to tow my car regardless. i called the number to find out where the lot was and kevin was nice enough to give me a lift there. we got there and i called again to find where there place was, cos they were in the process of moving. no one there. no one would be there for an hour or so the guy said. so i went up to brentwood to putt around for awhile and shortly after got a call saying one of their drivers was there and i could get my car. i walked over and eventually found the dude who had my mom's car jacked up on his flatbed towtruck. exchanged $80 for the car and went on my way.

on the plus side, burnaby was beautiful this afternoon. sunshowers. double rainbows. sick ass sky off in the distance like a 3 layer cake. also i got the shop a client in the process. as they had just moved i assumed they'd need signage seeing as i had a hell of a time finding their lot in the first place. gave them the shop number and my name so i'll be expecting some commission sometime in the near future. all in all a strange afternoon.

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 08:46:24 GMT

you never fail to put a smile on my face
a babbling brook of innocence and purity
"unks" and "pee-pee pots" flowing from your mouth
they warm my heart

the economy could crumble and you wouldn't bat an eye
the tallest towers could fall and you wouldn't even know
at an age where nothing matters
but a full cup of juice and a joyful face

as you age i hope life doesn't harden you like some
to a rock incapable of happiness
i wish all your days could be like these
but they won't no they can't
boyhood qualms will come
teenage problems will hit
like massive weights
we all must pass the trials of our lives

for now i'll just watch you grow
revel in the times that i know won't last
like walks to the park to play in the rain
and i'll think fondly of my own past
the good times and bad which made me who i am today.

LOL

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 16:31:51 GMT

So on my way to work this morning I stopped at the local gas-station to get a hot chocolate and a primetime and my headphones were around my neck, too loud apparently. The cashier asked me what I was listening to and I said "this band called Mare" to which she responded "sounds interesting." Interesting has to be one of the dumbest words with the most connotations.

Roadkill rampage

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 20:45:02 GMT

So the other day I was driving in richmond for work, and I ran over a dead dog. I spotted it right before impact and I'm sure it wasn't a racoon or a skunk or anything of that nature. Unable to swerve due to there being a large truck in the lane to my right, and oncoming traffic to my left, I braced myself. It felt like a big speed bump. Even though it was already dead I felt bad about it all day. About a week earlier I had hit a squirrel or two that had already met their demise. I hope this isn't the start of some kind of pattern.

On a less grim note. I was just looking into methods of hauling my ass across the country in january and decided that taking the train through America is my best option. Return trip from Seattle to Buffalo costs only $300, then $16 for a bus from Buffalo to Toronto. As it stands I'd be doing this alone which is dandy. But if anyone feels like joining me on this expedition feel free to do that. I'll buy you beef jerky, or if you're vegetarian some other treats of your choosing.

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 15:57:02 GMT

I had a dream last night, a good one. In it, Neil, Nick, Giles and I went to France, I thought it was Paris but we were at a beach so that didn't make sense. I make the trek there alone, arriving and having a very hard time getting to the place we were staying. I had to sneak through two movie theatres and evade the ticket-rippers, and didn't pay for the metro. I arrived at some beach house in the pouring rain. Neil had papers to write, Giles had brought a Nintendo gamecube. More stuff happened but it was really funny at the time. I'm forgetting details even though I woke up only 15 minutes ago. Lame.

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 07:51:44 GMT

So I just realized the other day that I hadn't written in this thing in over a year. What better time than now to blog. I was just reading through old entries going back to 3 years ago. It was like a mini trip through time. There were many things I set out to do, some I actually did, others fizzled out like a soda slowing going flat over the period of a few days. But that's what life is I guess. You don't achieve everything you set out to do unless you're super inspired and motivated like Ghandi or Hitler.

Today was a good day. I've been working at a sign shop called Sign-A-Rama for the last month and a half, which is kinda bogus despite the hilarious name. I make not very good money but work with pretty alright people. The job is just boring and I don't really have any interest in pursuing a career in the signage industry, despite my boss's best efforts to convince me. The best thing i've done so far in this job happened today. I got to operate a scissor lift which was fucking so much fun. I'm surprised they let just anyone drive those things. I spent about 5 minutes figuring it out, how to turn the wheels, jerk the thing forward and raise it up and down. I felt like David Blaine. A+ experience. Had band practice tonight with Noogz, Scott and Giles, which was great. We all had patch cables which is more than I can say about the last time we jammed. I really hate going to jamspaces though. If anyone has a basement they want to let us use that would be awesome. Okay thanks.

I moved out to east van for a month and a half and now am at my mum's house once again. Couldn't be happier. My east van adventure was short-lived and pretty isolating. Living with Larissa was awesome though. Larissa is awesome.

To sum it up, I need a new job, bands are fun, I'm going to Toronto/Montreal in January to check out Ryerson/drink cheap beer, hangout with keeners, explore the urban environment. I forgot how much fun Livejournal was and how interested each and every one of you must be in my life. So much so that you probably read to the very end of this entry.

fuck this shit.

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 02:26:24 GMT

19 days left. 19 days to carpe the diem. 19 days to see friends and family and enjoy what's left of summer.

4 days left of work.

I cannot believe how fast this summer flew by. It makes me shit....basically.

I'm excited for montreal but wish I had more than 19 days left here. I feel like every day worked is a day wasted.

dancing on the corpses ashes.

Thu, 04 May 2006 20:32:00 GMT

It seems everyone and their dog has been down south of the border, except for me. Unlimited drinks, wild parties, white sand beaches and cheap clothes. No wonder it's the number one vacation destination for North Americans. It's been on my mind lately.

When people go to Mexico, they don't see Mexico. They see and experience something surely created by Americans. Resorts are surrounded by huge fences in an attempt to protect their patrons. How is this experiencing Mexico? Many people don't even leave the hotel grounds. They are content with the everflowing stream of alcohol graciously provided by the resort.

Everyone sees Mexico as a place to go and drink their face off. Well, teenagers and young adults at least. Terrible shit goes down in Mexico. The number of female factory workers (working for American owned factories) found raped, beaten and killed is in the hundreds. Mexican Police are far from being the most honest and reliable cops. We see Mexico far differently than Mexicans see Mexico. It's an incredibly poor country and life isn't easy.

I don't know where I was going with this rant but I think I managed to say something.

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 19:49:07 GMT

so I was driving through vancouver this morning and I saw army recruiters outside of what I assume is the Armoury near GM Place. They were standing around a tank. I'm sure they'll manage to doop a few suckers who think it'd be fun to drive tanks and do drill exercises.

in other news, i'm 20 now. My birthday was on tuesday. I drank JD with Laurel and a bunch of people dropped by throughout the day with beers. It was generally a great time even though I was sober by the time I went to bed at midnight, having to wake up 6 hours later for work.

holyfuckshit.

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 07:37:15 GMT

The fact that I'm turning 20 in 14 days is starting to worry me. No longer a teenager? Fuck. I guess I can just say "you're only as young as you feel", but I can't help but feel like my youth is gone. I had a good run and all but still, I wish I was 16 again, and I could do this whole "late teenage years" thing again. Every so often I go through a "I wish I was a kid again" stage and I don't think I'm going through one right now, but I'm still feeling kind of bummed. Oh well, get over it alex.

Last night the most terrifying thing in my life happened. I was driving over town after work to try to catch Moneen at the mesaluna, and I hit a pedestrian. I was turning a corner on a green light and it was dark and rainy and I didn't see them. She basically just got knocked over. But we called for an ambulance. The medics checked her out and she ended up walking away from it just fine. Police filed a report. I had to file a claim with ICBC this morning and I need to go see a claims adjuster tomorrow, routine type of thing. I'm just really thankful she was alright, it could have been far worse. I just hope she doesn't try to sue me out of spite.

life aspirations!?!?!

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 10:31:05 GMT

so on my walk home tonight I mentally compiled a list of the things I most want to achieve or see in life.

-go into space
-develop a voice changing machine that would make me sound like Butters from South Park
-be a brilliant mathematician/physicist/quantum leap theorizer
-hitchhike around the world

that's all I could think of.

raincity what.

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 09:15:47 GMT

Man how I long for the weather to turn nice for more than one afternoon.

Went to English Bay last Thursday (I think..) It was a day off well spent, just hanging around listening to music in the sun. Grabbed dinner at Vera's Burgers. It was good. Raincity indeed.

see my vest.

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 20:53:18 GMT

Oh how I wish I was going to school. Working back at supervalu, but as closing manager this time around so I guess it is more worth my time. Eagerly awaiting blue sky, even just for half an hour or something. Who knows when it will come though. I guess I shouldn't really complain about the rain considering I've lived here for 19 years. Plans for schooling in september are starting to come together. Either Lethbridge, Alberta or Montreal will be my base for studies. Still haven't quite decided on that one yet. Either way I'm excited.

things that are keen at the moment..or have always been keen:

the advantage--->there's not a whole lot I can say about them...except for maybe.....KEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN!
bagels&cream cheese--->newfound love
buried inside,give up the ghost,malady--->thanks giles
white russians--->always keen
sleeping in until after 12 noon--->keen for the moment but already getting stale after 1 week
waking up at 5:30--->terribly under-rated
home movies--->christ I love this show
james dean,jack kerouac,wes anderson--->eternally keen

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 02:41:58 GMT

top 5 American states I'd like to backpack/train around:

1-California
2-Texas
3-Nebraska
4-Montana
5-New York
6-Kansas

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 06:04:40 GMT

"
And then, with no real explanation,
I just launch into it: I tell her
about Laura and Ian, and Charlie and
Marco, and about Alison Ashworth and
Kevin Bannister...

...and you wanted to sleep with Chris
Thompson instead of me, and... and I
thought you could help me understand
why it keeps happening, why I'm doomed
to be left, doomed to be rejected
and...

"

sometimes I can't help but feel like John Cusack.

Alexander's terrible, no good, very bad day.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 19:15:59 GMT

this was yesterday but I couldn't get to a computer to update.

"Today has been one of the worst days in recent memory. I woke up alright, decided to shower, used the toilet, only to find out it had been plugged earlier. In a panic I managed to smash the lid of the tank.

I've been expecting a call from Grouse Mountain for the past week regarding my job with them. Recieved a message around 5:00 tonight saying the job training begins November 17th. I had told them 3 times that I wouldn't be back until at least the 22nd, so why the fuck do they not only give me the job, but also expect me to be at said training session from the 17th to the 21st.

This news was made worse by my dad lecturing me about how this job is more important than my trip. Nothing is more important than this trip at this point. He expected me to postpone the trip, or be home for the 17th, when I'm leaving in 2 fucking days.

So much shit left to take care of before leaving on Tuesday. Fuck.

It really is terrible to have this shitty a day today, because last night was the best night in ages and our best show possibly ever.

I am going to be really tempted to just stay in Lethbridge and get a job and not come back here for awhile, if shit does fall through with Grouse, which it likely will."

Today is better, but my dad is still being an ass. I have to call Grouse today and ask them what's up.
I leave tomorrow on a train at 5:30.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 07:15:22 GMT

songs of the moment:

Death Cab for Cutie-Summer Skin
Embrace-Money
Fugazi-Epic Problem
GLC-21 Ounces
Nada Surf-Inside of Love
Godspeed You!Black Emperor-Sleep:"She dreamt she was a bulldozer, she dreamt she was alone in an empty field"
Jimmy Eat World-My Sundown
Westside Connection-So Many Rappers in Love
Mogwai-Plans(Bloc Party cover)
Mineral-Silver
Sigur Ros-Gong/Andvari
The Streets-Dry Your Eyes
Katamari Damacy OST-Cherry Blossom Color Season

thanks for playing.

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 21:19:42 GMT

Yesterday I saw Converge, they were hella good. Terror was funny, good frontman, guitarist had gold teeth.

We played a show last night, to a grand total of about 15 uninterested kids. Oh well, good live experience and we played a good set.

On Tuesday I see Sigur Ros. Holy shit.

Next Monday I see Death Cab. Unfortunately I'm going alone so if anyone is going on Monday the 3rd, go with me!

summertime ends...I skip town.

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 19:21:48 GMT

Tomorrow morning I'm leaving in a 93' blue Honda Civic, final destination Lethbridge, AB.

A vacation is exactly what I need right now. I've been working alot and 2 weeks of Alberta adventures is exactly what I need. I packed this morning and I think we're leaving town at 4am tomorrow. 2 cd books have been carefully compiled, my guitar is in the bag and i'm more or less ready. Today requires some goodbyes, some only for 2 weeks, others for months. Goodbyes suck, but at least i'll likely cut back on my potsmoking as a result, which is a positive thing.

I'll see you bitches when I get back.

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 07:59:21 GMT

Let's recall the last 5 days.

On Wednesday,nick,jon and anthony and myself went camping at 37 mile. We arrived at the place around 3 and there was no one for miles. Smoked alot of pot that day and went swimming in the river. All in all a great day. On Thursday we decided to eat some mushrooms we had procured tuesday night. Holy fuck. My first time doing them and I was so high, it was pure awesomeness. We were on an island in the middle of the river for the bulk of the trip. On friday we managed to clean up camp and off we went, the 37 miles back to the highway and after that back to squamish. Here we ate at Burger King and nick took the greyhound back to Vancouver for $8.20. Anthony, jon and I went on to whistler to a friends cabin and that was more good times, but not as good as camping. It was clearly the best camping trip I've ever been a part of. Anyways, I thought I might have some interesting stories or funny happenings to document but i'm drawing a blank. Time to sleep in my bed for the first time in 5 days.

Tanner is a fucking idiot.

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 16:20:06 GMT

Yesterday I worked for 17 hours and spent the last 2 hours of it washing dishes in a restaurant where they had been shooting the show. It was a pretty absurd day. First I saw a hobo taking a shit in the middle of the parking lot where we had set up crew park. Minutes later, another PA drove the locations rental van under an offramp but failed to notice the "8'" height warning posted on the ramp. Needless to say he crashed into the offramp and succeeded in nearly ripping the roof off the van. Later that day he was fired. To top off the day I saw a needle beside the curb in Yaletown and took cell phone pictures of it, cause hypodermic needles are funny like that.

Giles is in Europe. I miss giles and I miss having band practice and hanging out in his basement playing god of war and dancing around gayly to Cindy Lauper....okay I made that last bit up but wouldnt that be key??? He gets back mid August and I can't wait.

I bought Sigur Ros tickets last week, but they werent as good tickets as I was hoping for. The best I could get was 27th row.

The other day Nick and I talked about travelling for like 5 hours. He has decided to accompany me on my train trip to Montreal in December. Taking the train accross the country in the dead of winter is going to be so awesome. According to nick we're going to survive on bagels and cream cheese but I doubt we can afford even that. I'm going to buy a huge military parka for the occasion and wear scarves. I can't wait to cruise accross the prairies in December, it'll be "breathtaking". Nick also said that he would like to go to Europe again next year and I plan to go in the spring so we may go together. We'll see how we do on the Montreal trip but I think nick is someone I could spend 2 months with.

a breath of fresh air.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 07:35:07 GMT

So I'm feeling very relieved, calm, and in a general great mood today. I heard from an old friend, went and saw chelsey's new apartment which is totally pimpass, and came home and powercleaned my room (it took about half an hour). It's a bummer to think that I could be living in that apartment too though. I might be moving there in September though. We shall see. Summer is pretty sweet. I quit my job last week and I think I have about a week left of work. I'm not sure what I'm doing for employment after that but that's not to worry about. Tomorrow I might be going to Spanish Banks to go skimboarding and tomorrow night we have late night band practice at NAL. I think my band is playing at a battle of the bands at St Catherines church in edgemont village on June 11th. It should be interesting. Anyways, time to drink pissy american beer. Night.

Sun, 01 May 2005 16:21:50 GMT

So apparently I'm going to the Sasquatch festival!! Fuckin sweet dude. I get to see amazing bands, go camping, and have a mini roadtrip. That's pretty much all I got to say right now.

2005 is shaping up to be the best year ever..

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 03:11:56 GMT

So, the remainder of this year has started to come together for me. The semester is over at school and 2 final exams remain, before I go to ottawa/montreal for a week. I've never been out east so I'm pretty excited for that. Upon my return I hope to acquire a job putting signs on the sides of busses. It has horrible hours, 9pm-5am I think. But it pays $20+ an hour so I'd be making about $3500 a month I think. I would work this job until early July. At this point I plan to go on random weekend trips with Jon to calgary. Oh, and I'm gonna try and get a job for him at this place too, so that'd be awesome.

In July I really need to take a roadtrip, most likely with Jon. I'm thinking of going down the Washington and Oregon coasts, and on through down the Californian coastline. It's a drive I've always wanted to do and I really want to see Big Sur so I'm really looking forward to this plan taking shape.

Also, in August he wants to take me to the Shambahla music festival in Nelson. It sounds pretty crazy and I'm stoked for that.

Me giles and nick decided the other night we wanna do a small BC/Alberta tour in the early Fall. It's pretty ambitious considering we've played so few shows in vancouver but it's something we all want to and we're gonna do our best to make it a reality.

I want to move out soon, ya know, just to give it a shot, see what it's like. I've been thinking though that if I wanna do all these things that I won't be able to afford living on my own. However, if I had this job I sure as hell will be able to afford it. Me, Jennie and Chelsey are thinking of moving out together. It'd be like Three's Company but not nearly as humorous, and I wouldnt constantly be hitting on them.

Anyways..this year is really starting to come together. That's all.